ANNE MARIE ALDERSHOF
On this installation from 2008 I still get strong reactions usually
along the lines of 'sick'. Therefore I would like to tell more about
personally experienced a miscarriage, and believe me there was much more
blood involved then this artwork shows.
This work should be conceived as a tribute.
It is not made to
Shock people, I made it for myself. Because my work is
always a personal statement.
My work is
often about life and death, Eros and Thanatos (the life instinct and
death instinct). Life and death belong together, without one the other
cannot exist. I examine them, try to grasp and understand it.
With images you speak a language
other than words. I am a visual thinker,
I think in a non-verbal way through visual processing using the part of
the brain that is emotional and creative to organize information in a
intuitive and simultaneous way. Some images will stay in my head
for years until I find a way to translate it into a physical image.
Until than I will work on it in my head, thinking about what materials
would be suitable. Sometimes the
material is not what I want and creates a different picture than I
Why did I used wool for "miscarriage"? I grew up in anthroposophical
I got an anthroposophic education. My
toys were of wool and wood, natural materials. The colors brown, grey
and black were banned because they were suppose to be evil colors. The
lessons at school were often about fairy tales and myths. I
thought about it as woolly thinking and saw anthropologists as woolly
people who were always in a state of dreaming, non realistic thinkers. I
hated the fairies and little people of wool, I longed for plastic toys
with bright colors. There is nothing magical about wool, it is no
fairytail when you know the truth behind the wool industry. Most of the
wool comes from Australia. They cut huge strips of skin and flesh off
the backs of unanestihetized lambs’legs and around their tails known as
When sheep age and their wool production declines, they
are sold for slaughter. This results in the cruel live export of
millions of sheep every year to the Middle East and North Africa.
Therefore I thought that wool will be the best material to use for my
miscarriage, life is not a fairytail.
work is a kind of self-analysis. By
making images I learn to understand myself better. Pictures tell
something about your personality, your thinking. Frued once said: "A
painting is actually a dirty diaper”. Art for me is a way of speaking my
mind and sometimes a therapy.
Anne Marie Aldershof,
artwork by Anne Marie Aldershof